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... I don't know what it is, but I can't get the hang of drawing lately. My style seems to have changed without me noticing. It's big and loose and sketchy now, and I'm not sure what it was before, but I seem to remember being very careful about my approach to drawing in the past, unless I was doodling.

Maybe that's the problem. I don't doodle much anymore because I don't have class. Without doodling, I don't have constant practice, or an outlet to just get ideas out without worrying about the end result. When I start drawing while being results oriented instead of process oriented, then I get sub-par work, and without distractions like teachers, I think way too much about how I'm drawing.

This new sketchy style seems to be an attempt to escape my own scrutiny and enjoy the same freedom as doodling- making lines for fun without focusing too much. Seems I have some shit to work out. I need an outlet to sketch nothing in particular for no reason, I think. Then I can be creative and take risks and not think about it, and I'll have whole pages of brainstorming and experiments to draw on when I set down to do specific pieces.

Uh. Well at least part of that makes sense. Hopefully.